The Genesis

Heh Hei...
On February 14th 2008, I took my first step to O school to begin my Project B. Everything happened that time seems to welded to my memory and it all seems so cool.
On February 14th 2009, I was bored to death in my room coz don't wish to go outside and cramp with others in a shopping mall. So, I stayed in room for the whole day...
Till evening, I got down to the dance studio to continue my Project B. Was rather enjoyable breaking than doing anything else. Though might get some injuries, some bruises, sometimes 'leakages', broke something...But those are small matters as I already got used to it...lol.

Version 4.2

Straight after exams, I knew deep down in my heart that I wouldn't do well. And during holiday period, I'd been thinking about my hardwork and the results that I will be getting. Sometimes, the effort that I put in just doesn't seems to be proportional with the results. Well...Guess I am depressed by the situation very much indeed. I blame no one but myself.



Results released few days before 2009. It was indeed a surprise that I managed to passed everything. But disappointed for several subjects that suppose to score well, but didn't score well. My juniors seems to encountered the same problem as mine. They couldn't do well for their first examinations in NTU. Well, I have plenty of experiences in scoring badly for my past exams, so I simply gave them some guidances and encouragement. To my surprise, I was told that I am very brave, and amazed by the courage that I had to move on, even though I failed so many times. Hm...didn't expect that I can be a blessing to others with my 'failing' experiences...haa. I've seen even greater warriors that have even greater courage than mine. Jessica, Ailing, HuiXuan...I am nothing compare to them.



It is my 4th year in EEE, and my last semester going to start soon. But I am not going to let buzyness to take away my passion and enthusiam in doing what I wanted to do in life. Church, dance, automobile, sports, friends...They is a price to pay in order to achieve that...and I am willing to pay for it. I am not a smart student around, but I ain't stupid either. Though I am not sure of my future yet, but what I can do now, is to finish my last lap in NTU, and make sure I finish it well :)

All Of A Sudden...

I've been very down recently. I always thought that my problems are the biggest on earth and nobody else can compare to mine. I couldn't stand with failure anymore. Yeah. People always say: "It's okay to fail...but the important thing is you must stand up again!". Yeah yeah...It's always been easy to say than do. I said those word to the people around before as well. But now? I've been hitted so hard..completely knocked down. At the point of time when I wanted to get up, I started to ask myself this question: "What's the point of getting up again?". To be honest, I am afraid. I'm afraid to stand up, afraid to fail again, afraid to lose again.
I like break dancing alot. And I mean A LOT. The reason? Simply because it symbolises great physical strength and techniques of oneself. Yeah. I realise I'm getting stronger and fitter from the outside. How about inside? I don't think I got much changes...until recently something happened out of a sudden...
Well...Something actually happened to one of my friend's family...I knew her since I was in poly. She is short, long hair, and looks very tiny by any mean...even until now she still look very tiny. She always gave me an impression of being very weak physically and mentally, and always need protection and comforts from others. But the fact is I was sooooo wrong. Even in the midst of such terrible incident happened to her family, she still stay strong not just outwardly, but inwardly as well. I'm just amazed by how tough she is, and to have the strength to stand up against what happened to her.
After that incident, I began to re-realised how small my problems are. And how coward I am to say that I don't wanna get up anymore. I am strong physically. But so what?!?!!! I lost to a girl which weights only half of my size!!!
I always think that the burden on my shoulder is too heavy for me to bear. But the fact is, He will never give you anything that you couldn't bear. Is she thinking that way too? I don't know...But I do prayed for peace and comfort in her heart since that incident. Stay strong Jessica...

New Movie Coming Up!

Yeah...This is how I look everytime after my training. The only difference between me and stallone is that we're in different battlefield. That's all.

Challenge

I've been stop practising dancing for about a week. Despise of tiredness after a whole week of schedule, I actually made up my mind to have a practice session with my friend at Esplanade basement area. SO, We went there on a sunday evening and was tryin to brush-up our skill. After sometime practice breaking, I started POPPING. And the thing I didn't aware of is I accidentally faced another guy which is directly in-front of me and it's kindof like show-off my popping skill to him. After I pop, that guy started popping too. And he purposely end his dance by facing me and show me a "What else you got?" posture. I was like...Hm...and i showed him "I got nothing more" posture. Well, guess I accidentally challenged that guy and in the end I ended up in tears...Haiz...Anyway, that's the first time I ever encountered a street dance challenge and in fact it was a good experience to me. I'll continue to train hard and do a fight back next time. "I'LL BE BACK."

Can you feel the dance?

This is one of my favourite popping video. The first time I watched this video I almost cried. Somehow the feeling is there. And that's the magical thing about dance. It is not just a show-off-thing. It expresses the message,expression, and feeling of one-self...Hope you'll enjoy the video as much as I do:)

One hand stand practice

Should called it "One hand (heel on the wall) stand" instead...Haa.

Sitting Down on a High Chair (Comfortably)

Oh...Over here says: "Thou shall not lie..." Ops..

Oh O...

Heh, Let's talk about the B-Boy Test. On that day, quite little of them turn up for the class (most of them has been scare till death I guess) Hm...but, that doesn't mean I'm not scare K...I'm just thick skinned. After 45minutes of lesson time, Wen Zhi started to ask us about the choreography thing. This is how we reply him...STUDENTS:" Har? Test? What test? Today got test meh? But we haven't prepare anything yet wor...Some more we are all very tired already..." WEN ZHI:" Ihh? I didn't tell you all about the test at all? Hm...Nevermind loh, I give you guys 10 minutes to choreograph first...Later then test...Haa." STUDENTS:" Die liao lah..." Actually I did prepared my moves. Is just that I acted blur when Wen Zhi ask me about it. Act blur live longer...haa. So here's the test, he gathered us into a small circle, switched off half of the lights, and bring on some very cool musics. Yeah...COOL! And whoever wanna dance just jump into the circle and start breaking! COOOOOL! Then the test starts. Expectedly nobody wanna go in and dance. Eventually WenZhi lost his patience and command all of us must jump into the circle of death. No choice then...Everybody take turns, and it was not that bad actually (As an audience lah...haa). Then, IS MY TURN! Gosh, die jiu die lah! I jump in and started breaking loh. The pressure is so high until I forgot some of my moves sia...Damn paiseh. But I decided to carry on and show them what I got(especially a fat man like me)! Well, the comments from the spectators are not bad! Even WenZhi also said nice! Wooohoo!

Practicing hard before bboy exam...

Yeah. Breaking-exam coming soon! Step up 2 movie also releasing soon! Planet Bboy movie also releasing soon! Gosh...Alllll good stuff coming together...haha! As seen from the photos taken from my room, actually my room dont't really have enough space to break & pop...so I decided to dance on the rooftop...sounds crazy..but at least it's spacious yeah? Practising almost every night...coz wenzhi want us come out a dance of our own style. NO CHOICE, gotta try my best!

Courage

It's a cold night outside my window. The moon is shining so brightly, that it kind of enlighten the loneliness of the dark. In my room however, I've been stoning in my room for hours, with cold winds blew into my spacious room, and that certainly drops the temperature of my heart. Sometimes it's very easy for me to get into this kind of mood, in a cold an windy night like this. Couple of years living in a foreign country, realised that I might not be alone all the time, but loneliness in my heart everytime. Something went wrong few years ago...perhaps...that's the root of everything. Eventually I lost almost everything. Not even the closest friend of mine can understand how I feel. I lost a brand new bike few weeks ago...But it seems like nothing compared to what I've lost few years ago...that feeling, motivation, dreams, visions, and the courage to keep on moving forward...it took me years of searching, but ended up with nothing. To be honest, I start to question myself about alot of stuff...like what am I doing here? what do I want do? Am I living for others? What's the purpose of my life? Can I be a great leader? Why is that I kept on failing in everything I do? When can I stop searching? When can IT be found? Or how can IT be found? Tonnes and tonnes of question...Eventually the things I treasured the most, I lost almost all of them...My ex-cell group members...we acted like strangers whenever we met one another, my cell member that has the same date of birth as mine,and I've been always wondering how's she doing rite now...one of my ex-cell member going back to her home country soon,and we acted stranger than stranger whenever we met...my NTU buddy during my 2nd year, ended up with total frustration and I ruined our friendship totally...there's still so much more I can tell...but the ending is about the same...haha. Academically? No need to talk about it...it's a failure upon another failure. At this point of my life, life should be meaningless.Why should I hang on still? It's courage...be it courage from my families, friends or church. The element in it is still the same. I am not good in bible verses like the rest can do, I can't talk holy things out of my mouth to encourage others, and I simply can't speak holy words from the bible to correct others' mistakes. But I know the simplest fact of all...even the holiest man on earth need the courage and faith to believe in what He's believing. I am no exception...I know He is the only one I can trust...and I know I can't go else where except to Him...In Him I trust...and I'll continue to pray...and have faith in Him...and believing He is able to restore my life again.

Something new...what's this called?

Heh...Finally something new that I've learnt. I also don't know what's this called. But I find this very interesting...Thou it's a bit hard to balance.Haa. Anyway, It's a good try thou. Yeah man, that's the way I encourage myself...Haha.

Training after training...

Well...I've been doing this freeze all the while. Coz I still couln't master the essence of High Chair yet. Since it is called High Chair, well, I think the difficulty must be quite high too..yaloh, that's how I make myself feel better?..I wonder...haha.

Unbreakable!

Oh well... This is my first lesson at O school. And the first dance that I learn is Break dance...Gosh...There must be something wrong with my mind. Well, the instructor of the class is WenZhi. And this is the first freeze movement that he taught us. But during the class that day, I couldn't even do this simple freeze movement! (ya rite, I am the only one!) And I was so embarrassed at that point of time. After the class I went home to try again but still couldn't to it...Well, monday I try again...tuesday...Then wednesday...and the 'break'through was on wednesday! Can't tell you how happy I was when I first done it! Yeah man, to some of the guys out there, this is a pretty easy move for skinny guys. But it is extraOrdinary hard for a heavyweight guy like me! I took this photo on thursday as I can do it quite well already...not bad har...haha.